Be a man do the right thing
Stupid Youthbeat magazine.. make me feel kinda blue.
cos wasted like alot of time.
Wat i wanna do is to go out adventure.. do sports.. hangout like a youth. do volunteer n be sunny!
but how come i ended lidat.
gao seng.. zhi dian mi jing oh.. :P
wow
12/30/2005 06:46:00 PMwah.. so fast.. its gg to be a new year soon! 2005 come n go.. now 2006 is here..
new year resolutions?? eh.. do well for bmt.. go ocs.. tt would b fine. :P
ive got no requests.. jus let my days be peaceful n filled wif u noe who :P
haha.. anyway.. guess i'll b at helena's house. yep.. den tt means i wun b anywhere else like marina bay.. or home.. haha.. or my braddell heights cc there. down there my place there got fireworks lor.. so nice.. goh chok tong gg lor.. n the jack neo team.. booooo.
hope it'll not b sian n filled wif laughter. :)
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
gathering
12/27/2005 05:10:00 PMi feel tt im v weak.. cos my nose runny again today.. n i depended on that small yellow pill again.. :P
anyway.. yesterday i went bugis to meet up wif that insurance gal.. den after tt ive been walking the whole day.. kinda tiring.. haha.. but me jus wanna wait till its night for the primary school gathering..
weeee. it was really fun! as in.. i haven met those guys for sooooo long.. well tho they looked the same.. we surely have fun acknowledging each other back ;) the turnnout was alrite la.. considering we haven met for ages. well some.. even for 6 years! haha.. yesterday got more than a quarter of the class go lor.. our class got 42 ppl btw. and alot guys turn out yesterday.. even tho the ratio last time was like 3:1 in terms of gals:guys. haha. i guess they didnt really contact well enuff oso.. cos quite a lot of AJ pri sch mates wasnt informed lei. nvm la.. i hope we'll have the chance another few years later.. YZPS rox! :P
oh so we've been eating n chatting.. n yea.. de guys got a table.. n the gals another table.. den its oso kinda like not much flow.. but hell anyway.. we had fun chit chatting..
n then later we went to yina's house.. haha.. de one who had a butcher father. n hes hella rich. lol. i think a millionaire.. he was featured in newspaper for rearing a jin long yu. haha. den we played her house pets too.. dogs.. hamsters.. n then they got even mahjong out at midnite.. duh..
well.. we didnt spend alot of time together yesterday.. but it was good enough. really looking forward to sth lidat.. :) n oh.. haha.. i didnt organised any 4e6 gathering.. wat a dissapointment =O
wateva.. another time perhaps?? cos i noe.. ppl are working working.. or gone gone.. some training training liao or soon.. like me. =S
Sunday, December 25, 2005
review
12/25/2005 12:52:00 PMaight.. the last time i told ya i finished 2 bks rite? remem.. a couple of wks ago.. haha.. ok here's de other one..
again its.. a cheese book. "whose cheese can i move?" by Chen Tong
anyway.. this bk is bout the same story as the "who moved my cheese" bk if i can remem. theres 3 mouse n 3 little men. Slick,Scamper,Spider,Weave, Waver, Whisper
i shall not tell u the whole story.. but its bout their cheese being moved n they hav to go find a new one..
i'll jus quote exceprts from within.
Does having cheese really make u happy?
If searching for cheese is your only meaningful activity in life, then your life will be destroyed by it.
If you sepend your time each day sniffing for changes in your cheese, your life will be boring and repetitive, like a programed routine.
Are you sure that new cheese can be found even if your not afraid?
Move in a new direction, and only two mutually exclusive, opposite outcomes await you, you either find new cheese or end up with nothing. WHen you get past your fear, you will have even more greater fears to face.
One often has to make sacrifices in the search for new chees.Why cant others move your cheese> would you move someone else's cheese if it were fresher and tastier than yours? the cheese belong to whoever can move it.
Will my cheese be safe from being moved, even if i do not move someone else's cheese? and if i do move his cheese, does that make me a thief?
What is life? A maze. What is success? To possess your own cheese. What is happiness? to Build your life with your own cheese!
Why should you search for cheese by yourself? You could transform yourself into a sweet desirable piece of cheese n let them find you.
The quicker you let go of old cheese, the sooner you will find new cheese.
If you're constantly on the lookout for change, you will lead a life of mediocrity and always be in a constant state of anxiety from worries over trifles.
You can never be sure that the new cheese is the one you like.
Do not let your beliefs perish like cheese. They are more important than cheese. Do not forget your beliefs for the sake of cheese.
Altering your beliefs do not help in afjusting to changes.
Enjoy change. When you have eliminated the arguments of the cheese from your mind, you will no longer be in a maze.
Successful people are those who keep moving the cheese of the unsuccessful. Unsuccessful people always get their cheese move.
Protect your chees from being moved. But be prepared for the opportunity to move someone else's cheese.
The world's supply of chees may be infinite, but do u want to invest your finite lifetime in an infonite search for cheese?
Hypocrisy is to sincerely express something that is untrue. A higher form of hypocrisy is to sincerely say only half a truth.
Hypocrites are those that often encourage others to do the opposite of waht they believe.
I had protected my cheese, yet I had lost it all at the sametime. We cannot have both cheeses at the same time. it was inevitable to lose one.
How many pieces of cheese are there for us in our lives?Can we be sure that we can definitely find new cheese by just searching?
Telling someone to look for new cheese again is a condescending way of telling the loser he had lost. Who wants to look for new cheese again?
ponder over them.. :)
Whose cheese can i move?
over
12/25/2005 12:03:00 PMwee.. finally work is over! ended quite late a few nites ago lo.. cos got a lot orders n places to go.. went toapayoh to ubi.. to serangoon.. to hougang.. to sengkang.. n punggol.. alot lo.. boo.. but last day i went back to holland village there.. tho v few places but they order alot lo.. den a trolley not enuff de lor.. mus use the big big one at ther supermarket there..think they call it kobe or sth.. wateva.. tho hardwork.. but quite fun la.. anyway.. good exercise too.. haha.. but back ache abit.. cos keep bending up n down.. my hokkien have been put to good use n practiced alot.. haha.. cos that driver uncle keep using hokkien 1 lor.. den i mus listen n reply wat.. hehe.
anyway.. now i bored again.. haha.. work keeps me occupied.. n got $$.. so tho abit tiring.. oso not bad la.. dun mind.. but if mus work long term.. i mind! haha.. i wanna go out play oso wat.. v little free time de lor.. :(
anyway.. bout a week or so jiu army le.. T_T
festive season.. hmm.. merry xmas!!
tmr gg to hav pri sch class 6G gathering dinner at marche.. weeee.. so exciting. haha
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
tired :P
12/21/2005 05:50:00 PMwaa.. im still tired.. haha.. no.. now not stomachache le.. finally !! :)
now tired cos of work
today i wif an old uncle lor.. den he dunno english.. need my help.. den he dunno where raffles boulevard.. den keep turning around there.. actuallyi oso dunno.. why isnt it called marina square.. why raffles??? but heck la..
anyway.. my research found out tt:
1. Giant has the lousiest supermarket. Its employees at the storekeeping department sux. They make u wait, n wait .. n wait. Rating:1 star
2.Carrefour. Big, young and friendly. Rating:4 star
3.Cold Storage has bout the laziest employees around. They would want u to help them put the goods nicely at their counter. Rating:2 star
4.Ntuc is our friendly neighbourhood supoermart. Its fast and efficient. But they complain alot. With occasional "fussisism" due to its countless no. of markets... Rating:3 star
5.ShopnSave. Mother save save save.. so do we save save save. They are quite helpful. A less troublesome lot. Rating: 4 star
did i miss out any other supermarts??? well i see whether i'll pass by more.. haha..
oh..btw, i had my first ride on a motorbike today. haha. de lao uncle make me sit on his.. its cool.. fast.. n like abit dangerous when he went over 90mph.. abit scary.. if gal confirm scream.. :P anyway.. i felt its much more stable then a bicycle.. mayb uncle got skill ah.. gif me an quan gan :P but no.. i nv hug him at all.. well i put my hands on his shoulders lo.. :) i no $$ i will learn bike n not drive car.. hopefully not la hor..
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
sianz 1/2
12/20/2005 06:16:00 PMi started working today! but only for 5 days la.. but this job is ssssuuupppeeerr slack. all i hav to do is sit in car.. n eat air. -_- haha.. u can name all de expressways in sg.. n i mus hav travelled thru it already..
n u noe wats my job? as a delivery boy.. lol.. n wat i delivered today was ..... HAM. "-_-
kinda boh liao.. cos u have to travel for bout an hour to send ONE piece of ONE KG HAM to tt NTUC.. duh.. but tt doesnt happened all de time la..
anyway.. i pray i wun hav to wake up darn early tmr.. n go wait at the manufacturing factory in woodlands for hours to get the goods.. boo.
otherwise.. this job is nice.. cos u do nth.. jus occasionally get down de car to throw the ham to them n get their signature.. n tts it. ;)
ahh.. still v sian
Sunday, December 18, 2005
finally
12/18/2005 12:33:00 PMoh.. hell.. i put up de new template i made..
but.. to me.. its still not done..
mus make until nice nice ma
got comments?? haha
Saturday, December 17, 2005
damn
12/17/2005 11:05:00 PMi aint doing anythg all day long!!..
cos of my sttttuuuuppppiiiidddd stomach.. :(
i ate 4 types medicine, applied 3 types ointment..
n still stomach weird weird de..
i lao sai many many times le :(
cant sleep well lidat lor.. wake up in de middle of the nite to lao sai.. :(
n at home still got 4 more types of medicine..
Arg! god blessss.
Friday, December 16, 2005
change
12/16/2005 11:14:00 PMupdate..
on my stomach.. -----> it is still grumbling -_-
n serious.. when i fart.. it stinks! eeeewwwwwww.. i cant stand it myself. but i rly dunno how.. :(
my blog skin vvvvvv v old le.. 1 yr plus?? haha.. n everythg else is old. i'll change it soon k. ;)
n soon will b new yr resolutions again.. wahhh.. so fast.. 1 yr again!
n next im entering ..
army
-_-
sometimes.. when u jus listen to ur body n soul n let ur intuitive flow.. u might still not b happy. mayb we should catch ourself.. every time we start future-fearing..i think bout how a feather falls off a bird. the bird simply molts when its
time to molt. no pain involved. it jus lets go of sth it no longer needs when
its time to let go. like the leaves of an autumn maple, the feathers fall off
gently, as part of a natural cycle. why do i make it so hard for myself when i
noe its time to let go?
Thursday, December 15, 2005
still abit tired
12/15/2005 05:21:00 PMwah.. yesterday slept for like 16-18 hours. :P cos rather sick.. dunno why.. a bit feverish.. headache.. den constipation n stomachache.. :S
den today start to lao sai n stomachache lor.. but now feeling better le.. :)
i tot i dreamt alot since i wake up like every 2 hours.. duh.. but i cant remem them..
i onli remem i dreamt bout sebas calling me to go out.. den i say i dun wan go.. den he started to get angry.. den he broke down.. den he said everything is gone.. his mum's (i noe her) cash n everything in de car kena stolen.. yep.. n remember discussing bout it wif antonio.. lol.. yea.. lidat onli.. haha..
i shall tell u bout 1 of the bks i read 1st.. cos i too tired to blog finish both.
"Big fish eat small fish" by Low Guat Tin..etc..
well.. it tells bout a tale why big fish eat small fish of cos.. n once a upon a time.. fishes dun eat each other.. they were living happily together cos there was ample seaweed for every Fish. But becos every1 took de abundance of seaweed for granted.. it soon became scarce n they were starving. the big fish blamed de small fish n vice versa..Then.. a wise old fish respeceted by every1 doesnt like wats gg on n rallied all de fishes to work hard n grow seaweeds togethr. well.. de fishes got down to serious work.. but not for long.they find planting seaweed a chore n started to look for (cheaterbug ways) like eg. pulling de seaweed out so that it immediately grow.. but.. they all ended up de seaweed dies instead. thus.. the situation did not improve. the old fish den advice them to use fertilizer.. but they were so happy the fertilizer worked tt dey keep adding until de seaweeds eventually died. the fishes were all starving.. n de big fish bully de small ones wif their size;snatch away their food. the small fishes gathered together in a large group n lure de big fish to secluded area n attacked it. inadvertently killed them. the big fish were outraged n thus had a war wif de small fishes. the big fish thus simply ate the small fishes. not only did they deplete the small fishes, they also satisfied their hunger. that is why to this day, fishes remain divided. sticking only to their own kind.
hmm thats jus de story.. n then theres a discussion followed by it. how to link tt story to our systems thinking, n our everyday lives.
it basically teaches us 8 system archetypes,
1. Fixes that fail (problem solving that does not work)
2. Shifting the burden(taking the easy way out)
3. Drifting goals (goals that are lofty to reality)
4. Escalation (vicious cycle that increases tension on both side)
5. Tragedy of the commons (buffet table syndrome - when resource is extravagant we tend to b extravagant in the way we use it for our own)
6. Success to the successful (everyone should b given the chance to develop rather than depend on few good ones)
7. Limits to success (explore limiting factors before the bottlenecks leave us frustrated in our efforts)
8. Growth and under-investment (grow your cash cow, dont milk it dry)
tts bout it.. ;)
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
tired.. why
12/13/2005 10:13:00 PMwhy am i tired.. :( im jus tired. jus feel like doing this -->>> >.<
i think ppl are uplodaing or uploaded their pics already.. haha i look bloated ^(oo)^
now aching alot.. cos of yesterday gym i think.. n today still went east coast to roller blade.. tho i dunno how.. haha.. so took a little while to u noe..get the hang of it.. n no.. i cant skate really well even now.. haha.. i find it hard even to blade over a hump! haha
v sian.. yet v tired.. dunno wat to do.. den i will jus play puzzle n read books den watch tv.. v boring huh? but yet.. i dread de thot of gg army.. :X
i read finish 2 bks in 2 days le..
ahha.. they were quite short la..
will tell u bout them soon ;)
Saturday, December 10, 2005
jealous.
12/10/2005 10:26:00 PMu noe.. IM So JEALOUS now. haha.. cos down stairs de things built ready le.. de renovation done before de new yr comes.. yea.. looks new n nice.. but their thgs kinda boh liao.. n outside my house windows got roof.. i mean those "you gai zou lang".. yah.. den i think i can climb out window.. n sit on it.. den if i wan jump n cling on de lan post.. n slide down stairs.. -_-.. worse still de roof connects to de other blk.. which makes it way too easy for burglars come to my house -_- but i really like to sit on de roof.. i haven tried.. but i will do it one day :P
oh.. im jealous.. cos downstairs got 3 ppl playing.. (1 elder bro.. den a sis.. den a younger bro).. tt seems so much like my siblings.. lol.. ya.. n they were happily playing.. but i think.. i think .. cos the age gap between bro sis n me is too far lo.. :( but nvm la.. im still happy n fine as it is.. :)
oh.. n i really wanna noe why de "pet-pet" cd so popular now??
wat schi snor schnappy.. schnoppy schinppy schnappy.. -_- Xiao lan pi.. lol.. it it keeps repeating in my head now..
another quick one
12/10/2005 09:38:00 PMwaaaaa.. got kinda lots to blog bout.. but.. i'll jus talk briefly..
it is extremely fast.. de days.. tuesday was prom.. alot of the gals was gorgeous ok? haha. n yea.. they hav nice hairdos. ;) prom king was george.. N woo wee wow.. in army boots.. n terrorist style.. whole body in black.. wif a belt with hes wat weapons( i heard he brought knife!) .. wahah.. really terrorist man.. im surprise he can walk in orchard road lidat! call de police.. no.. call woodbridge. lol.. he lidat go army sure die lo.. n prom queen was georgia.. which doesnt really seem happy shes de queen.. well.. if shes queen den its not really fun anymore.. haha. but well.. she looks more like a dancer wif her short pink dress.
i took v few pics.. n i dun hold possesion to them.. not tt i dun wan to see.. but.. jus but. this time i dun go around take pics wif my camera.. haha.. well i help ppl take pics wif their camera :) its jus tt i cant let go.. nope.. not like how i would in secondary.. but err.. i cant go around hugging every other girl like i used to can i? haha..
n here i go.. call samuel humji.. cos he dun dare ask gals take photo wif him.. haha.. boo.. not tt i dun wan hor.. is i cant.. :P
n oh.. darling mus b happy hor.. take pics wif other shuai ges.. :P but its really fine wif me.. cos.. who dares touch her? hmm..
sth different from sec sch prom n tt of jc one was tt.. everyone seems to go chiong club after prom.. kinda weird.. cos tt place really doesnt suit every1 de ok? especially de gals la.. high heels still wan dance meh? n ya.. de spirit isnt there in de whole prom.. less.. wholesome?
after prom.. we went out.. kbox.. de entire night.. waaaa.. actually not v tiring.. jus tt my nose cant tahan :( got irritated by sth.. dunno wat.. if not i dun mind singing de hor? :P n we were room 70.. surprisingly.. antonio was in rm 73.. n we didnt meet each other at all.. haha.. i think those rooms quite far oso issit? stayed in de hotel room in de morning for my sleep.. lol.. the rest went yakun i think.. but i was eating in my dream.. hehe..
thursday went out wif mama hougang.. she went looking around n shop.. well.. i cant possibly stuck wif her for the entire day.. so i went off alone.. n then i met a gal tt asked me do survey .. den sumhow.. i was brought to insurance -_- haha.. but ok la.. im free anyway.. so i jus listen lor.. i guess they r too friendly.. n ya.. began listening to her bout savings insurance.. n life insurance.. n Prucash.. shes Joey from Prudential.. graduated frm NYP.. i dunno.. but i was quite inexperienced.. so i paid de first month premium for a savings insurance.. $70. haha.. i mean.. i tot.. worth considering.. so i jus pay first.. ( so that i can leave.. n stop her toking furthur.. lol..) n go home n ask my family lor.. well.. n u can noe de outcome n conclusion was tt i dun need one. kinda true.. cos im still a student anyway.. pay $70 per month for 25 yrs.. Siao.. too long la.. even if got high interest.. it not a smart move.. i noe im eager to hav money n be loaded while im young.. but haha.. tt could b a lousy move to buy insurance now.. i mean.. its like fixing my path already.. its always better to hav money by ur side.. n hav more options.. n more opportunities for investments? haha.. n furthure more.. i read up on more insurance n realise de life insurance isnt tt good la.. i can buy SAF de.. for like a few bucks n im insured $40,000 for death? its not like "choi" insurance.. but.. better to be safe than sorry.. i wan to mean n worth sth.. rite? hahahaha. so im gonna call joey ( de nice gal tt even sms me goodnite) tt i dun wan de insurance le.. :) well.. nice experience n a lesson pick up.. <> not never.. but.. they r not worth it.. cos those ppl tt sell earn big bucks.. cheater.. dey work on PR n jus treat u nice cos they wan u buy insurance.. be wise n clever.. dun b trick.. even if shuai ge dun buy.. they seduce me i oso wun buy. cos.. i got darling :P anyway.. im still a student wif no fixed income.. jus forget it.. for like 10 yrs first.. :P money comes later.. when it does.. it rolls in like a tsunami.. hahahhaa.
oh.. n yesterday was char's bday.. yea.. she 18 le.. finally not a child :P dis notty gal better dun b childish anymore.. ahha.. but she will always b my XTQ. :P
hmm.. went TM.. bought flowers gib her lor.. ate pizza watch movie.. a v traditional way to celebrate ;) n then went to downtown east. cos my PS chalet down there.. bought them chocolates lor.. they having bbq la.. hope they had fun.. n oh.. i haven tried de chicken i marinated :( n its jian qi bday.. nv sing n cut cake for him.. nv take pics yet. sorry k.. really.. cos needa leave wif darling.. but its still quite late.. n her shoe spoil.. so miss out some fun.. but its ok rite.. hope u had a nice bday.. 1st one wif me lo.. :)
n today.. continued wif swimming.. haven do that for a long time.. i mean nv continue my plan for a long time ;P haha.. dun hav time ma.. i really needa add on for my running.. :S tmr go gym k.. i wanna be fit n hav a hunky figure oh. :D anyway.. pss.. my belly still ther "-_-
oh ok.. now u noe wat happen de past few days :)
char dad coming back home today.. think she can go out less often le.. :( n soon in a blink i will go army.. aaaaaaaahhhhhh.. sian! v sian! but when i think of john that gone in yesterday.. wah! he even more sian rite? haha.. Bless him..
bless me soon.. n bless every1 else.
aahh
12/10/2005 12:39:00 PMah.. i v long time nv blog..
anyway.. i gg off to library soon.. jus came back from swimming :P
and oh.. wanna highlight somethings from de book
"Why Me, Why This, Why Now" by Robin Norwood.
Like i mention this book kinda chim.. wif all de energy fields etc.. healing at different levels.. duh
Guidlines for healing ourselves
1.Always look for the gift in adversity
2. Never indulge in self-pity
3. Never blame anyone else for your problems
4. Cultivate an attitude of gratitude
5. Do not judge your condition or that of others
6. Avoid sentimentality
7. Recognize that disease is not a punishment
8. Seek opportunites to serve
9. Learn to regard death as a healing
im close to that rite? hahahaha :P
Guidlines for healing others heal
1. Be free of need
2. Recognize that we are only agents for healing, not its source
3. Resist being glamoured by the owrk and our ability to do it
4. Be "spiritually naked" with the person we are tyring to help
5. Recognize that there may be family, group, racial, and planetary karmas operating
6. Accept that people unconsciously know the reason for their condition
7. Honor the time transformation takes
:)
tts bout all
summarise the book. lol.. no time..
paiseh.. blog again some time soon. ;)
Friday, December 02, 2005
quick update
12/02/2005 11:11:00 PMeh.. me went out on thursday i think.. watched little chicken.
den i left wallet in de cinema at cineleisure!
den i realise.. n went back to get. lucky got it back. haha. :) the ppl there were nice.. n i got it back in like 15 minutes. ;)
yesterday. went to sentosa. didnt get sunburn.. so happy.. :P play volleyball.captains ball. canoe..den gokart..
today.. pilot computer test.. damn tiring..
tts it.
end.