Be a man do the right thing
i feel like shit now.
its terrible.
imagine a world dark n hollow.
Thursday, October 27, 2005
now im feeling better ;) toked to nic yeo.. jus like toking to him.. haha.. feeling good now.
anyway.. its raining.. and its night.. i guess i can study well under such moods. haha
CHIONG AH~~!
respect.
10/27/2005 06:34:00 PMda huai dan
>.<
Sunday, October 23, 2005
grinns.
10/23/2005 06:29:00 PMyo.. went out to study yesterday.. wif antonio to serangoon macdonald. somehow i was quite talkative i tot.. haha.. n was like disturbing others( a pair of v decent couple).. well they were obviously taking theri A levls too.. haha.. cos they were doing chem papers.. :P n ya.. that macdonald seems more like a library then a fastfood restaurant.. its filled wif students and ya there was like a dozen of them taking their As too it seems.. NY students.. SR students.. Catholic students.. n some unidentified de la.. haha.. arh.. wat a studying atmosphere..
well.. i saw pri sch frens like zhangwei n Leo zhao.. haha.. Leo was exceptionally rude.. n antonio seems pissed.. cos i waved at leo.. n then he pretended he nv see.. n 10 minutes later.. he appeared out of nowhere rite in front of me.. i was shocked la.. n then i asked him why he nv wave back.. den he say he shuang.. den i ask why he come back.. he say i like.. -_-.. wateva.. haha.. still nice to see him though..
oso saw that low sinting.. i asked him why he come serangoon.. den he say cos got SR ppl here.. den he say.. but im not sitting over there.. cos got some SR ppl he dun like.. -_-.. diaoz.. then why come.. haha.. but din rly got the chance to tok to him.. he went to tok wif his other SR frens.. :P
ahh.. someone angry lor.. din rly understand why mus so angry.. but i noe tt its jus out of concern. :) ya.. sorry.. i guess i wouldnt b tt angry if its me. :P
lastly.. DUN ever do tt stupid NJ GP prelim 05.. kaoz.. its so darn hard.. the summary n AQ is crazy.. tho i v mature liao hor.. (keke..) i oso find it hard to understand and argue my case.. bleah.. i guess a monk or a scientist dun even wishes to argue such things.
what can i do to get A for GP? hahahahahahahaha *dreams*
Friday, October 21, 2005
wahhhhhh
10/21/2005 08:49:00 PMtoday went out to amk library.. didnt do much work.. cos i v confused.. :( gotta work harder..
anyways.. i saw mindy n her bf today.. ehhehehe..
n den i saw desmond.. he say he din do well in prelims either..
wah.. sai la..
i suddenly feel i cant do it.. :(
jus try my best
Friday, October 14, 2005
last day of sch
10/14/2005 03:16:00 PMoh.. its de last day of sch today.. what should i say..
yes.. like mr eugene ng in de chem dept video..
.......
how should i put it.. it was a day tt seems sorta unusual.. i cant wait to get out of the sch.. n yet i seemed to have feelings attached. afterall.. i died in this sch.. this is de place i struggled. certainly memories lie here..
i was to be glad tt now i can leave de sch..no more of their business.. n wash myself away frm all de unhappiness de past 2 yrs.. but was it gg to happen? i dunno.. but its true tt those ppl ard me are still friends i guess.. they are not ppl i hate.. n i noe mayb losing them frm my life could b a big mistake.
i guess i would hav regretted this day.. tt i still refrained myself from what i was seeking for.. ive got no reason against why i cant.. but theres jus tt fear n force hindering me.. im definitely will be disappointed..
mayb im numb today.. but perhaps not in de future.. all de well wishes i heard over n over again.. finally had an effect on me.. i was touched.
it seems a long time since i felt being so concerned.. ppl seems to bother n care finally.. n yes.. showing it in a way which i may not seem to appreciate.. but in fact wif gratitude..
a note is a butterfly folded into two.. its beautiful..n colorful..
i see a rainbow in disguise.. far behind de dark clouds..
i hear a tumultous applause from even the ants..
its a good feeling.. i too had de urge to explode..
but i was able to curb it well.. thanks alot teachers..
its kinda amusing how i was even forbidden to get my entry proof.. haha.. jus becos i nv report for my haircut.. lol.. its amusing.. but yes.. tts de fact how my life in aj could b summed up.. i was in fact got a useless scolding by tt vice principal.. lol..
n then i was away from the photoshoot.. its gd anyway.. becos i would hav felt misplaced somehow.. its not like the past in secondary.. yea.. where i would use my digicam n go shutter happy like tengjin did today.. no i was crazier.. cos i noe a lot of ppl as a matter of fact.. n i would go almost all classes to take photos.. it was wacky.. haha
but.. ive taken few photos today.. n i dun have many to make me remisnice this place..
but times are different.. i cant compare it.. its not fair..
i noe i would hav regret it.. but running away from it may yet to be the bad choice..
exams coming soon.. may the good lord bless us.. and all of u filled wif happiness after leaving aj.. :)
Thursday, October 13, 2005
ouch..
10/13/2005 06:14:00 PMEveryone has different opinions.
The one that exercises his opinion and influences other into his thinking dominates.
Thats how Laws come about.
Im trying to convince everyone into my world.
Try influencing me.
But u never succeed.
If my world is unacceptable, i find it hard to integrate into the mainstream as well.
AJC failed me because at the end of the day, im one who can't enjoy himself alone nor with fellow men.
Sad to say, im uncouth and uneducated.
Just pull me.. by all means push me.. kick me.. beat me..
but i dun wan to suffer anymore.
let me go.
let me into the green world outside. i wan to see the world.
perhaps it'd be liberated soon..
" 2 X 3 = 5 "
10/13/2005 04:45:00 PMheadache today.. sigh
rather sad. i made myself happy but im still sad. its a lousy day.
By the Kian Hong's theory of " 2 X 3 = 5 " , even the simplest thing will make u have a day of misery.
Helping = Not helping if u dun want to help. ==> x = -1 + (-1) ==> x = -2 ----> Eqn 1
Not helping = Helping if u want to help. ==> -x = 1 + 1 ==> x = -2 ----> Eqn 2
~~ Eqn 1 = Eqn 2
It makes no difference.
The world can only become unbalanced if everything leans on one side. ( Kian Hong's Law of the Unnatural)
The poor remains poor not because no help was given. But because no one believes in helping.
Ideally, the poor becomes rich only if the world leans on their side.
The poor doesnt remain poor if they help themselves.
Similarly, the poor doesnt remain poor if you help them.
The poor believes that they can get out of poverty. The rich believes they can get out of poverty. But nothing has been done.
The African is the most intelligent man on Earth. The world is shocked. The African agrees. But the smartest man was recognised as Albert Einstein.
It seems right to say he is poor because he is an African. But not when u say he is smart because he is an African.
An African is not clever because he was not given the chance.
Albert Einstein made it because he created the chance... By turning himself crazy.
Help is given to Africans. But Africans remain poor.
It is not helpful to say "Help yourself".
Help them help themselves.
They will help you let you help.
By (Kian Hong's Law of the Unnatural), the world becomes rich.
I am poor.
"I think so too."
I will be rich someday.
"I definitely agree."
But i dunno how.
"Help yourself."
In that case your as poor as me.
"Why?"
Help yourself to the question.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
In the end
10/09/2005 07:57:00 PMwell well.. how i wish tt linkin park song will be played over n over again.. since p6..
its been telling me..
in the end.. it doesnt even matter.. LOL
i may like tt song but the end matters still anyway.. :D
its 30 days to A levels.. scary? yea.. cos ya noe i flunk my prelims.. can i turn shit into gold? ahh.. i hope its easy.. i think it can be done.. cos seriously.. de careless mistakes is enuff to take me some 20 over marks.. yupz.. wif tt sure can turn O to A rite? ah. hope so.
but i guess my body is changing from A to O.. haha.. i think got belly liao lo.. whole day eat. slp. study. booo.. so sian.. but ya.. 30 days.. i gotta be scared! mus do sth bout it k..
lets hope everythg is smooth. 2months later u'll see me at the beach rite? n then theres our big breakfast. yummy.
theres so much to do.. so little energy to complete.. so many dreams.. so many obstacles to climb.. haiz.. but most imptly. my stomach is grumbling now.. :( i wan my dinner.. quick! :P
Friday, October 07, 2005
the fight
10/07/2005 09:50:00 PMmy prelims grades sux.. but tts not the end..
its a months time to A levels..
im dissapointed.. sad.. tired.. lost..
but tts not the end.
even a crippled man stands wif de help of crutches..
i'll succeed with my determination.
dun give up. the fight is not over.
persevere. i will win.
if i hav lost confidence in scoring. find faith in believing.
passing is not an aim. getting A is an achievement.
cmon.. pull urself together..
struggle through.
may the outcome be fruitful.
Amor Ipsemet.
Monday, October 03, 2005
let me die
10/03/2005 02:31:00 PMwhat do i need..
what do i wan..
the rain inside..
ren si bu neng fu sheng
jie ai shun bian ba