Be a man do the right thing
Darling~! whaha.. we've been together for 2 months le.. Awwww~ ur so sweeet n nice these few days.. haha.. serious! thks lots.. ;p Wun forget today.. :) haha.. Happy 2 Month Anniversary~! hope u like the frog.. though din really spent alot effort getting it :P oh.. the ecard u sent oso v nice ^^
hmm.. yesterday was AJ idol Final lor.. wah.. got sho many outside ppl come lar.. as in from other schs.. n oso got alot of my sec sch frens ^^ oh.. yee rae mei came!! so nice to see her cute face :P den alvin yap oso.. haha.. nice nice to see them.. then AJ idol nth spectacular or nice lei.. erm.. jus tt singtel v good.. sponsor so much stuff lar.. den got free pizza from canadian pizza oso.. sho nice.. so the taufik wannabe - hazlami won de AJ idol lor.. den caryn got the singing.. n champagnes won de band. ok lar.. dey were roughly good lor :P but felt sorry for Jan Jiao Bin( LJB) for not winning any prizes.. after tt.. went to eat wif samuel.. yc.. qiyuan.. kendrick.. alvin.. they say wanna celebrate belated bday for me.. -_- diaoz lar.. in de end i think i still pay de meal myself hor? haha.. Kiam lei..:P den kinda sian lar.. dunno wat they wan :P tok cock lor.. reach home v late.. den peng n slp..
de nxt day woke up early.. which is today.. wah liew.. cos got AB camp lor.. den tiring lar.. train first aid.. erm.. tie here n there.. learn dis n tt lor.. :P erm.. was basically like a mad person being tied lor.. haha.. but quite song lar.. cos my left side is sin yan.. right side is amy.. :P den they help tie me up.. lol.. den later played a game.. which is supposed to bring ppl across from one end to another lar.. erm.. hard to describe lei.. haha.. got 2 crates n 2 wooden planks as resources lor.. den supposed to like cross a "river".. yupz.. haha.. so got planning n thinking work to do lo.. quite nice lar.. den after tt got alot of reflections n discussion.. learn pretty much today la.. erm.. on how to conduct reflections for them lor..
Wee.. think adhiraj pretty excitied bout de AB camp thg.. we gg to hav fun controlling "Mohawk".. :D n peiwen too ^^.. haha.. we r the "hawkers".. :P anyway.. going to sentosa reci soon.. haha.. wonder how it will go..
okok.. nth much.. jus tt de bus journey seemed like eternity..
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
eh.. after much advice from ppl.. the main thing is tt..
Only I Can Save Myself
whaha.. fine lor.. -HuG mySelf-
Okiez.. mayb jus 1 factor
I gotta get back my confidence
help me build it up.. yea..
Confidence :D Just Do IT ! Weee~~
i dunno
4/27/2005 09:53:00 PMwah biang.. i seriously dunno.. wth is wrong wif me.. diaoz lar.. i cant seem to think properly.. or in fact i think alot.. think sooo much.. think too much.. think until like im still thinking now.. n ur wondering wat im thinking.. but neither do i noe wat im actually thinking!! wah laoz.. its like me trying to solve a problem.. but theres simply no way to solve it! wah kaoz.. how can it be possible.. n precisely tts y.. i cant stop thinking i think.. ArGH~ help.. i dun wanna think anymore.. but i cant.. :(
u noe.. it feels totally terrible.. its like eating my soul.. my heart.. my brain.. my body.. im like gone.. wah.. gosh.. im like describing till im like nth left.. but tts how its like lor..
for a moment.. every1 might say.. we shuld stop n look n reflect on de thgs tt we had done.. waha.. tts seriously a v nice joke.. i do look back.. mayb not alot.. but i dun dare look back.. cos its scaring me.. wah.. i could hav done better.. yes.. but im doing so badly.. n im continue doing it.. its like shit. SHIT.
hmm.. haha.. ok.. so wat happened yesterday was like basically.. i-dunno-why-it-happen kinda thg.. i remem i ate alot after i came home.. totally alot.. 1 packet of mee.. 2 packets of biscuit.. 1 slice of cake.. 1 glass of grass jelly drink.. half a packet of milk.. n den i toasted 2 pieces of bread.. plus add sugar n butter on it.. yupz.. worst is i continue to eat dinner( rice n vege..) in like 1 hr later.. diaoz.. i dun understand y.. but i feel so hungry n i dun feel full at all..
yep.. so went to study n do work.. but its like i soon fell aslp.. (like a pig ^(oo)^ ) den.. i dunno wat happened lar.. jus tt went i woke up.. i realise i got a phone call.. so i tok n mumbled.. she wanted sum1's hp no.. but its in my hp mah.. so n den i hang down de phone to sms her lor.. but i dunno wth i do lar.. i ended up deleting all my phone name entries lar.. wah biang.. i win liao lor.. its like trying to erase all my name frm every1.. but i dun think i succeeded.. cos its like sooo many ppl still call me.. n ya.. strangers still call.. diaoz.. guess i can nv run away..
den later i dunno.. i jus feel so afraid.. n ya.. den got so depressed.. when i dunno like wat the hell happened.. ah.. so yes.. i hid at my bed.. wah duh.. its like i feel so ashamed of it.. yet i still did..
jus keep thinking lor.. dunno..
i dunno dis n dat.. wateva u ask me.. i really dunno.. ah..
mayb shuld tell u how i feel.. but ya.. i dunno how i feel.. haha.. ok.. but i try to tell u wat are the thgs dat i think i feel.. :S
i feel.. bad.. ugly. dumb. ashamed. tired. weak. empty. hollow. horrible. terrible. uncontrollable. wateva i do is wrong. i cant go back. i cant stop. everythg falls on me. pressuriesd. stressed. squeezed. blamed. ignored. frustrated. like trying v hard to stay afloat. like going to be kicked out any moment. like the world is pricky itself. like the whole world is sorta against me. like i might be worse than a dog. like ive got no self. like falling sick is so good. like tommorrow always comes in a minute time. like i cant slow down. like i cant stop walking... like i cant jus let a day passed like tt.. n yet i regret it.
basically jus feel like dying larr.. :S yep.. cant find a word to describe all.. haha
dad is so irritating.. hes like making a fuss.. out of everythg.. like a bug.. like a fly.. grrr.. hes complaining bout why there are like ants in the toilet.. then he complained.. that somebody got diabetes.. den he goes on like wat the whole family should go checkup.. n den he pin point my bro that its him for sure.. n den he like nv sleep properly all de time.. wah laoz.. hes totally biased. dun care him >.< but he make it feel scared. ya.. wat if its me? haha n den i contracted all sorts of diseases.. n den im dying.. but in fact.. i might jus wished for tt.. :S
dunno why.. serious.. im in depression.. stressed.. breaking down! ah..
felt better after a cold.. i mean cold bath.. yep.. but my headache still there.. im mentally.. n psychologically.. n wateva.. weak... :S
jiayou.. to me.. i gotta find a way out.. i can do it de.. bless me.. pray for me..
Sunday, April 24, 2005
hmm
4/24/2005 10:16:00 PMLove ya lots darling~ :)
thks alot.. u make me feel better
though shama's stuff mayb abit scary.. but dun worry.. im here wif u :)
Saturday, April 23, 2005
care
4/23/2005 12:25:00 AMhey thanks alot darling.. haha.. better now le.. cos u helped me alot today.. haha.. thks for looking after me :P
v tired today.. cos been rushing here n there.. didnt slp well last nite.. kept waking up.. ah.. stress? haha..
so did de prposl 2 for the games.. but i think i still needa edit n touch up abit.. yea.. shall do it tmr..
jus now PS outing.. wah biang.. those ppl kinda enthu lar.. stya until so late.. buay sian meh? wah kaoz.. haha.. then andrew, n patrick oso came down n played together.. captured a closed up pic of the moon.. as well as playing with light sticks.. shall get them from john some day.. :)
ok.. shall sleep.. lol.. -__-.. yawnz..
Thursday, April 21, 2005
qu shui jiao larr..grr..
4/21/2005 09:51:00 PMhaha..i guess u dunno tt jus now i cant even remem whetehr i soaped myself while i bath.. n then.. jus now when i was crossing road.. i dun even noe tt the man turn green.. den got car honk me.. duh..
another f***ing thg is tt mum is v idiotic.. argh.. i think every1 shuld attend workshops on like how to maintain good relationships with your parents.. diaoz lar.. irritating.. kept asking qtns.. n i kept hating to answer them.. forget it k.. i noe wat im doing .. so F** off okk!!!!
kkkkkkkkkkkk
4/21/2005 09:18:00 PMdamn larrrrrrrrrrr.... i feeeeell soooo F***ked up.. im sorry.. but i needa say tt.. wahahahha.. its beeeeeen soo long since i last said rite?? haha.. Fuck it..
yea.. this morning had fun toking to wen bin and hon chan bout ZHSS life in the reading room.. woooohooo.. nice to remember the so FUN times at ZHSS lor.. totally stress freeeee!! wEEEee its sooooo good.. yea.. AJ its like so shitty lar.. n down there at zhss is soo much freedom.. i can fuck every1 up all the time.. be guai lan all de time.. yea.. nobody said im a guai kia.. ccb..
im born an ah beng lor.. knn.. if god knows whu dunnos.. then now u noe lor.. im not born de way i am now.. im brought and groomed to such a state lar.. pathetic larrr.. Haiz.. i merely wanted to be a gentlemen.. yes.. tts why i hid all de vulgar language lar.. ni na buey chao cheee bye!!!!!!! :P
ok.. wateva.. i dun like being vulgar oso.. whahah.. likes carry on..
oh.. erm i was pissed by PKK diaoz.. lousiest in 09, AJ n some say singapore! duh.. ok lar.. kinda bad.. i dun mean it.. but it looks like its kinda true n times.. haha.. its like i wan to help oso dunno how to help lor.. wah kao.. he is sho disorganised lar.. wah lao.. how i noe wat he want? i oso dunno wat he toking.. n then everythg with him is so messy.. i dun even noe how he think.. duh.. den wif such kind of stress.. he work even more gan chiong.. den he totally messed up his life.. n messed up mine too.. i am so pissed! argh.. but i simply too kind le.. even skipped bridge cos of him.. wah laoo.. i regret lar.. :( i dun even noe wat to do now oso.. kaoz.. i suggest ppl go watch the NYP's Gan Chiong King la.. oh man.. all of u are like them.. pls do 1 thg at a time lar.. :(
neeeeda do de AB camp games lar.. den after tt i gotta study chem SPA.. n then hor.. i dun care bout the track n field lar.. sry PKK i unable to help.. i think i shuld stop being kind.. pai seh.. but No.. i must be jue qing!! argH!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
duh
4/20/2005 09:15:00 PMhaha... OoPz..
Things to Do:
1. Finish GP Compre!! Left AQ
2. Settle Friday's PS Outing - Venue, Time, Activities, Grouping, Rationale, Aims, Things to teach, attendance, money
3. Arrange meeting with J1 prog com.
5. Settle next week's PS prgramme - rotation, sort J1s to grps..
6. Arrange with JingYeen on J2s programmes
7. Help settle Kranji workshop, touch up on seminar.. End of photo competition... what must JY do..
8. Check out the preparation of J2 PDG phototaking
9. Training for J2s on PDG phototaking
10. Prepare for photo competition - reminder- Total Defence, Montage, Capture the moments
11. Change and edit the AB camp games.
12. Type out the Field events.
13. Study Analogue - ( i dun understand much!)
14. Do analogue tutorial
15. Do Charged particles tutorial
16. Add workings to P n C.. Do the extra questions
17. Start on Probability tutorial
18. Prepare for Transition elements
19. Read n study for Friday's chem SPA
20. Thursday(TMR) do research for GP
WAHAHA.. 20 things to do :)
Lets start with GP!! yea.. LETS GO!!
Jiayou to darling tooo.. dun be so blur lar.. haha..
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
bleah
4/19/2005 08:01:00 PMwhat do we want.. what do i want? if onli we could express ourselves better.. than.. thgs wun be so crammed up inside.. n we would be feeling better.. wat exactly do we want?
i guess.. its stress.. cos im doing nothg!! argh!.. help.. diaoz~
early morning somebody already tried pissing me off.. den hmm later.. still make it worse >.< anyway.. its jus gnawing inside.. so its like not my choice.. :P
dunno why.. seems like d whole sch doing P n C today.. so i went ard helping.. haha.. hope im of help den.. :P haven do my physics yet.. sucked.. den still hafta do the GP psgs.. yep.. realise im kinda better off.. cos others got bio.. n its like others seems to hav difficulty understanding bio.. n ms leow got trouble teaching bio.. dUh~
ms leow not happy today.. dunno why.. i jus felt so strongly when shes like at a loss of words n everythg.. its like soo hard to swallow.. its pain.. arhh.. hope shes fine ;)
god bless u~ (like she always write) n hope everything goes well..
jai ponnnnned sch again.. wateva.. -_- why do we hafta do this?? EeewW
somebody is trying v hard.. i shall try hard too.. ^^
Monday, April 18, 2005
1 day..
4/18/2005 09:08:00 PMkinda fast tt one day is over.. ha.. when i think.. i totally cant remem wat have happened.. yea. cos i did nth.. n nth seems to be done.. tired? no.. i dunno.. not been putting the effort i guess.. so its like a "ok.. a day have passed" kind of life.. boo!
aight.. de day was alrite until i had my test.. which basically sucked cos i cant concentrate n i like jus take my time.. haha.. so too bad.. got no time.. n then tts why maths test is like shit.. i jus realise i make a careless mistake in qtn3 n which is why i like take quite a long time to do.. n when i went back to change n everythg it was so messy n troublesome.. n then there.. i had no time to do qtn 4.. whaha.. sucked >.<>.<
well ok.. why shuld i blame myself for tt?? haha.. its ok.. cos i noe i can do better :P blah.. but feel sorta guilty dat i din rly do my work these days.. ah.. learnt nth.. sad manz.. wat shuld i do?
i threw those letters to kangli lei.. was i bad? haha.. actually i dun care!!! i dun care!! i dun wan do le.. can i jus dump n throw the J1 programm to someone else too?? i dun wanna care!! help!!
had the AB camp meeting jus now oso.. though say its short.. but it still seems quite long lo.. bleah :> hmm.. yes the games were childish.. but wat to do?? haha.. i'll try to think of new ones lar.. but i no inspiration.. n i dun feel like doing oso lei.. bah.. got anythg out there to copy? games that has meaningful learning points.. lol.. can dun redo not?? arh.. its kinda like PW lo.. ewwwwwW
oh.. went home wif weishan jus now.. is she talkative or wat.. i dunno.. we sumhow like can got thgs to say de.. duh.. oh.. she asked bout me n char again.. haha.. n den we toked bout PW lor.. yah.. in fact de whole like 20 mins we toked bout PW.. duh.. haha.. ok lar.. not v boring lo.. :P n oh ya.. i showed off de PW advert again.. haha..
wanna mention sth sooo Cute! i saw a frog while i was waitng for bus.. Weee~ hah.. froggggg... Geckoo Piong~ Kakpor pok pok tiao~ haha.. though some might think de frog actualli looked disgusting.. its jus so cute.. hhaa :P
needa go do GP.. damn.. haha..
* sometimes i wonder.. wat have i been saving energy for? i dun feel tired.. but sianz.. arh.. shuldnt i jus put in the effort n do it well? hmm.. *
Sunday, April 17, 2005
yea.. confused
4/17/2005 03:55:00 PMyes.. my mum is rite.. i nv did noe how to take care of myself.. i cant live independently.. yes.. tts me..
its like everytime i wanna believe.. but u somehow jus demoralise me.. do u noe how it feels??
i;ve had good times with u.. but to me.. its u who always wants to stop it from lasting.. why is that so?
is there anythg u wan to confirm? anythg u wan to ask? if so .. i wuld rather u ask it once and for all.. its like de same thg tat applied to de posters.. its irritating when i have to do n change it not once.. but alot of times.. like its my fault..
i dunno wat to do either..
believe it or not? can u tell me? stop asking me
i answered.. but it seems like u din convincingly believe
believe is impt to me cos at least when im wrong.. i dun have to blame myself tt badly..
Lei si wo le
4/17/2005 01:10:00 AMsniff sniff.. lack of slp i guess..:P so tiring lar.. early morning gotta wake up.. den mus transfer files to diskette.. den rushed to sch for ab camp meeting..
ab camp kinda shiok.. but tiring lei.. made us run..den do so many pumping.. well ok lar.. only bout 70~ den still got do PT.. but rahter slack oso.. den played 3 outdoor games.. so hot lor.. make me headache.. as if i toothache not enuff.. wah laoz.. den all sports lor.. got street soccer, touch rugby.. frisbee.. den they crap n tok bout wat team alignment etc etc.. haha.. to me its so cliched.. anyway.. its all sports lor.. sometimes.. i dun think everythg can be applied totally..
den they chose leaders n ics for the ab camp.. haha.. kinda glad im not inside.. hehe..though last time i said i wanna be.. but im damn tired lar.. think if they ask me i oso will reject.. siao.. my grades are still !*(mailto:^@^(.. haha..
den. after tt.. kinda sick.. cos its like my envelopes for the letters are locked in de lockers.. den 1 of the envelope i was carrying.. was most prob left in the reading room oso.. cos some of the ab campers shifted our bags out of the reading room mah.. den they mus hav not taken it lor.. haiz.. damn lar.. hope it will still b there on mon!! argh! so i can onli send de letters on mon.. den its like after my ab camp i still needa go down to chinatown to print the posters lor.. kaoz.. i haven eaten breakfast lei! so i called char lor.. onli to find out she kena scolded by parents :X
i so sian lor.. alone.. den i went to hav lunch lo.. cannot take it.. kinda boh lat.. but after eating damn slpy lar.. during the mrt ride i like gong gong de.. dunno wats happening.. haha.. reach chinatown mrt.. den went by wrong exit lor.. hehe
so i reached KT, the photo shop lor.. den de ppl there v friendly de lar.. tts y i like.. haha.. den i still gotta do some editing down there.. cos i mus convert the size to A3 instead of A4 so i can print 2 "A4" on 1 A3.. yah.. then de auntie still got charge us cheaper lar.. normalyl they say 1 piece A4 is 80 cents??? wah lao.. wan me pok ah.. no $$ lei..they got sponsor us stuffs mah.. den she keep reminding us to help her da guang gao.. lol.. so i print like 108 pieces of A4 in total lor.. n it cost like $27? de auntie say its cost price.. well.. k lo.. each A3 paper plus inkjet ink is 50cents.. hmm.. dunno exp not lei.. den i oso found out i nv edit properly.. one of the pic i missed out.. :P but dun care la.. hope nobody noticed :P hahaaha.. im jus tt careless k? :P
den sth nice happen lor.. hehe.. darling called me at KT while they were printing.. yah.. so nice.. haha.. though din really tok for v long.. but it mean alot to me.. :P thanks k? :D
reached home rather late liao.. nobody home.. den i slacked abit lor.. time go v fast.. den i eat dinner le.. jus now damn slpy.. then go slp abit.. haha.. but i still feel tired now lei.. but ok lar.. i finish de track thg le n the chem mcq ;) shall continue wif work tmr! :P
oh.. kinda bad to fujiet n gang.. cos i keep on no time to play online game wif them.. haha.. hope they dun mind.. ;P
oso.. today met yinyun.. long time no see pri sch fren.. de first thg she see me is ask for money lor.. diaoz.. haha.. she doing flag day lar.. :P den she asked bout de pri sch frens in AJ lor.. haha.. nice nice.. but yesterday i oso got see my another pri sch fren wenxun on the bus ride home.. wah laoz.. she i think refused to recognize me lor.. anyway.. she turned butch mah.. so much like a guy lar.. de way she walk.. like chao ah beng la.. haha.. ok wateva.. :P
go slp liao.. haha.. but someone nv say gdnite to me lei.. but its ok lar.. nv say gdnite to her oso :P bless ya!
Saturday, April 16, 2005
try my best
4/16/2005 12:21:00 AMhmm.. im fine liao.. really.. sinusoidal curve lar.. but lulu told me better to be exponential curve.. haha.. oh.. thks lulu for forgiving me k? ;)
anyway.. de early morning was abit rush lor.. cos had to settle for a PS meeting due to Lost of Camera! haha.. but its ok.. de cam is not lost.. but we have to blame for our negligence.. yupz.. :P so.. mayb tts y i go LT for phys lecture .. i might seemed a bit grouchy.. ;P oso.. cos i din hav my phys txtbk.. damn lar..
but after tt.. i got try to be happy hor.. i keep myself active lor.. yah.. n i found tt helena actually tried toking to me oso.. yea.. as in.. she dunno de maths qtns then she asked lor.. den i explained lo.. ^^
haha.. den PE oso fun.. cos finally played games.. HAHA.. :P.. then yes.. i touched bball!! but still my skills turned rusty lar.. :P anyway.. it always feels good to score.. :P den oso played tennis.. which im not v good at.. but haha.. jus glad tt the ball din fly all de way over the fence.. yupz.. haha.. so had fun lar.. den oso me n jai sneaked out to check PW results lar.. haha.. good lor.. lulu, me n char all got band 1.. :) but i feel damn sad for trixy.. cos its like i think she put in more effort then me lar.. haiz.. how.. guilty.. ya.. its like zhen hui n sairi feel de same too.. we all think its gotta do wif de OP lar.. our class like half is band 1, half band 2 lar.. its considered v good liao :)
den during bio i went to see mrs cheong for maths vectors.. hmm.. found out actually i do correct lor.. jus tt i careless.. ya.. hope i can be less careless lor.. :P
den.. the whole day i nv see ms ong lei.. think sth bad is gonna happen.. haha..:(
after sch.. like not free oso lar..
cos gotta settle de J1s for problem solving.. yawns~ sianz.. i cant think oso.. cant even set the problem for them properly lar.. >.<
really tired n kinda bored. so i asked char whether she wanna watch de aj idol.. ya.. so wif me being resourceful.. i got the tix easily.. haha.. :P make dwayne n yi xuan.. kinda amaze.. :P
thks to char for accompanying me watch lor.. yah.. appreciate ur effort.. thks man.. and i heard her sing too.. haha.. sweet voice.. n really cannot sing sad sad songs de.. anyway.. i still think i sound nice lor.. serious.. haha.. i picked wrong song onli mah.. n its like i dun hav ppl to help me wif de music.. haha..so its ok.. jus hope 1 day ppl realised.. hey.. this guy can sing real well!! :P
ok.. peng.. cos got thgs haben do.. nvm.. shall leave till tmr.. :)
i can onli remem 1 song for the AJ idol lor.. which is the first song lei.. erm.. Thank You for loving me.. :D
lastly.. i mus thank lulu,char,n shilin.. the 3 people whu constantly read my blog :)
i think i felt the concern now :D
Thursday, April 14, 2005
fujiet
4/14/2005 09:54:00 PMwhy did he say.. Theres a difference between help n over doing it
:(
4/14/2005 08:54:00 PMim jus so sad.. :(
and they have to make me suffer physical pain as well.. :(
haiz.. i dun feel at all moved.. or feel any gratitude when char actually bought me strepsils when i cough.. pocky when i nv eat.. :( sorry..
wanna say.. its another sad thg when i dun feel good for my birthdays.. -_-
wei she me wo zuo ren zuo dao zhe me xin ku?
how can i actually cry in sch..
but in de first place.. no one noticed.. so doesnt make a difference..
still hounded by work..
jus hope toothache stops.. pain..
and sad thg is ms ong wan see me cos i skipped cca novelty race.. :(
Pain Pain .. Ouch ouch ouch!!!!!!!!!!!
4/14/2005 08:29:00 PMPAIN.. IM IN PAIN!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Ni Zai Gao She Me... Wo Zai Gao She Me.. Wo She Me Dou Gao Bu Dong.. Wo Dao Di Zai Gao She Me??? "
im sorry.. i cant keep myself happy.. i am rather dissapointed wif myself.. even though Amor Ipsemet has been like a motto for more than a year.. im so sad.. i cant achieve it.. its .. i dunno.. simply sadness..
guess im in depression..
yupz.. its STRESS
i somehow got all de problems seen on the AJ reality chat.. bah~
How sad is that?
Today.. damn painful.. toothache.. super pain.. i really endured much.. then sum1 still wan make me heart ache.. already suffer from mental ache le.. haiz..
how come?? i dun get myself.. arhhhh .. pain.. headACHE..
:( :(
Sigh~~~~~~~~~~~
shall numb myself wif work.. if i can concentrate that is..
i got alot of work to do.. but i nv do..
do u get it??
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Can You Predict?
4/13/2005 08:14:00 PM"What makes a movie lame? Predictability. What makes a movie great? A well-written story that ISN'T predictable."
I'm feeling totally fine now.. Even though I've Been Totally Stressed like 5 hours ago. Yupz.. sux man.. Jus tt theres like 60 J1s which i have absolutely no idea wat to do.. n then suddenly all my seniors came back.. n then theres tt Loh Eng Hong.. whu still wans to pose a threat to AJPS.. den the teachers are there as well.. oh.. damn.. cos its obvious we din put in effort for the presentation.. its not tt im scared or wat.. its that we were expected to perform.. but yet we din even put in de effort to perform.. yah.. so.. simply.. Pai seh perhaps.. Haha.. :D
So current problem is how to come up with a template for J1s to plan this friday.. yupz.. bah :P
theres alot of photo competitions oso... but dun hav time to take them.. :P
now.. Loh Eng Hong came.. n said about the Schools Challenge thg.. erm.. tts a direct challenge in my opinion.. damn u.. idiot.. u stink.. haha.. NJ.. BOOO..~ :P
Photo seminar.. erm. haha.. dun rly hav de spirit to care.. especially when the rest dun care as well.. guess they busy wif passport.. but actually the non-excos are not wat.. haha :)
Today can be considered my bday as well.. haha.. actually is my lunar bday.. yah.. ", mum cooked mian xian wif egg.. i remembered onli when i saw de 2 egg.. lol smart eh? anyway.. its Kang Li's bday today.. :) hope u'll hav a nice time for the rest of AJ life.. sincerely.. haha
Ooo.. jus found out that my handphone no. is actually an auspicious no... My family's hp no. all inauspicious.. lol.. even my home no. oso.. lol.. jus found out tt golden nos. are actually really very auspicious.. lol.. :D
Erm.. my family members all like took turns to tell me.. concentrate on sch work.. diaoz.. dey say.. dun play too much.. orh ok..
go to work.. erm.. do maths :P
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
PppppuuuuuuuuuutttTT*
4/12/2005 11:22:00 PMBAH.. stupid coms bully me today.. everytime COCK up de.. F*** U.. in sch all de printers geng wo you chou.. all cock up oso!! dun let me print .. den i qik kek.. dun print le.. jus now blogger oso.. dun let me blog. i type one whole chunk .. GONE! -_-
grr.. im not feeling goood, confused, puzzled, worried today.. cos i got thgs which i cant solve lor.. yes.. its gotta do wif PS de.. yah.. but ok lar.. sorta solve them le lar.. haiz..
first.. i gotta present sth on photography.. which i myself is not v sure on.. den its like i got no idea wat to say.. n de slides is like v little words to explain.. bah.. so im like totally clueless how i gotta go do it.. but ok lar.. i tried to find sth to crap le.. but the prob is i needa go sorta memorise them.. n understand them.. n then tried to fit them wif de slides.. n YAH.. thats like totally shit.. how am i supposed to do tt? BAH~
den J1 programms sorta solve them online jus now le.. yah.. haiz.. tho still got a few more probs.. shall not think today.. Headache.. ahh..
haiz.. dun wanna waste time blog lar.. irritating.. argH!
darling.. so dun blame urself lar.. in not angry nor sad.. HAIZ
rain
4/12/2005 08:41:00 PMhow come i got headache now... T_T
Sunday, April 10, 2005
To Darling
4/10/2005 10:31:00 PMWeee~! haha.. Happy 5th WeeK AnniVerSaRy~!!! lol..
thanks for everything.. nth wuld hav happened if not for that nite *lightning strikes*
hehe.. u've been great all these while... dun worry.. we'll face all challenges bravely de..
:D -hugs-
Saturday, April 09, 2005
David DeAngelo
4/09/2005 09:52:00 PMhmm.. David DeAngelo.. this person is somehow de greatest man ever.. cos hes like a witch doctor.. being able to understand women's thinking.. hmm tht makes him like a date doctor.. the one seen in "Hitch". yepz.. hmm.. anyway.. i think i now understand why some gals like guys to surround her :P anyway.. "date doctors" hmm.. i guess.. they helped create opportunities.. but its still the actions that one took that matters.. :D
www.datingdiversions.com
4/09/2005 09:41:00 PMYour dating personality profile:You matched the following traits:Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.Wealthy/Ambitious - You know what your goals are and you pursue them vigourously. Achieving success is important to you.Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life.
Your date match profile:You match with women who have following traits:Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.Intellectual - You seek out intelligence. Idle chit-chat is not what you are after. You prefer your date who can stimulate your mind.Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps her body in top shape.
Your Top Ten Traits, Ranked
1. Athletic2. Wealthy/Ambitious3. Adventurous4. Liberal5. Practical6. Sensual7. Big-Hearted8. Shy9. Intellectual10. Stylish
Your Top Ten Match Traits, Ranked
1. Practical2. Intellectual3. Athletic4. Sensual5. Adventurous6. Outgoing7. Big-Hearted8. Traditional9. Wealthy/Ambitious10. Religious
Hmm.. not really accurate to me.. but its still a test anyway.. ;) perhaps de traits describing me are right.. but erm.. de ranking not v accurate..
:D
4/09/2005 09:16:00 AMhaha.. no need go for meeting today.. no need go sch lo! Mr cheng not free to meet us lor.. so dis wkend free liao :P
yesterday rather busy lei.. early morning i was late again.. den took cab wif antonio lor.. den after that i gotta go hall breif de J1s on passport phototaking.. den was late for physics lecture.. but lucky the Chan cheeee ming.. accepted my reason for late.. den didnt ask me questions.. haha :P anyways.. he mentioned tt the green skirt gals are invading our territory.. haha.. which i think is rather true.. :P haha.. sorta like his jokes
den after tt got PE.. den napha.. rather tiring lei.. dunno y.. although it seems like normal training days lar.. den the 2.4 ate up our break lor.. so poor thg la we.. den right after is chem pre-spa.. which i dunno where i go wrong oso.. v few ppt come out lor.. den so de solid crystals v little.. but nvm lar.. dun care ;P.. but then it oso almost eat up de entire bio period.. den after tt.. im supposed to meet casey goh lor.. so i went.. den she tok.. n tok.. den almost whole period gone lor.. den i still need rush to library print essay.. cos i nv print at hm.. ;P so end up i nv eat lunch lor.. haiz..
den slack after gp period.. haha.. lazy to go for PS.. but then ms lee call me go.. so i have to go lor.. hmm.. i wonder wat shes thinking n how she feels too.. think she stressed up.. so i had better do some work to relieve her stress lor.. haha
yesterday hurt myself twice lar.. once my elbow scrape the window grills at the side of the sci lab.. den got rust one lor.. but forget it lar.. nt v pain.. den 2nd is i cut my thumb at the locker.. diaoz lor.. but char like v concerned over the small cut. haha.. :P
had a real long slp yesterday.. but i wonder why i miss char last nite.. haha
Thursday, April 07, 2005
dun blame
4/07/2005 09:16:00 PMdarling.. i noe u bu guai wo.. but i still wanna hope tt is true :P hope that wat u said is true oso.. hope that wat u think is rite oso.. hope tt thgs will fall in place.. =)
about the song which i sang.. u wan u go look at the lyrics again lor.. id prefer ppl thinking bout it.. den me tell u lo.. de same goes to de thgs i drew.. slowly think hard.. i noe u'll get it lar.. but den.. its ok if u dun too.. i mean it jus shows how i perceive thgs as.. yea..
jai's speech in de morning.. erm.. not impressed.. :( but i trust tt he had a card for me.. if he is lying.. trust me.. i;ll break his teeth.. >.< damn de liars
gotta doo essay! byeeee
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
toot*
4/06/2005 08:33:00 PMalrite.. im back.. i guessed irene is rite that the time when u go home is a good time for u to reflect about the day.. haha.. but its alrite.. i din missed my bus stop.. haha
i had to gif some talk to de J1s.. some form of briefing.. u noe.. tell them wats PS.. wat we will be doing.. wat are de benefits.. n oso wat are de programmes lined up.. yahz.. so in de morning i haven do mah.. so during de bio lessons i did lor.. guess u all were watching some.. (porn) videos :P anyway.. so today PS turn over rate wasnt as much as i wanted.. 48~ i aimed 50.. :P its ok.. got approx like half guys.. half gals.. but then i think gals still win in nos. lar.. yepz.. haha.. got bout 10 is from 1st 3 mths de.. thks for staying ah.. haha.. n then saw de st nic gal whom i suan wun get into NJ.. she nv blamed me.. haha.. i think shes rather stressed n sianz now shes in AJ.. haha.. dun wry.. im here? :P den oso got saw a quite chio J1 coming PS.. hee.. :P oh.. den after i tok.. den they went to room 1113 for de J2 presentations on de specialised team.. yep.. well de J1s dis well i think.. yah.. but i think erm.. mine wasnt as good .. which definitely will make me throw face.. :P haha.. wateva.. de J1s were like completely bored lar.. which is of cos?? haha.. cos de terms used were advanced lar.. n then i tried to explain to de J1s lor.. bah.. ms casey goh larrrr.. she yesterday den tell me change de plans and make it compulsory for de J1s.. so sad.. anyway.. dun care.. de j1s go off.. i say its her fault.. wateva.. n den kangli were like so gan chiong scared they go off.. wateva.. do i care?? :P
earlier on in the morning.. i spend my entire bio lecture break wif shama.. haha.. shes in de sick bay lar.. so i went to pei n see how she lor.. well ok.. she nv slp for de entire night.. crazy.. but.. i guess normal ppl find it shocking to hear tt she was locked out of the house my her mum.. but.. haha.. to me.. ok lor.. so toked to her for de whole 45 mins lor.. wah laoz.. but ok lar.. her problems are complicated.. its not sth someone can solve easily.. :P take care.. hope she can slp erm.. on the floor tonite.. er.. ya.. haha.. nice toking to her lar..
ok.. coming back to de issue.. definitely i wasnt happy wif their arrangements.. but.. hmm.. i dun gif a damn.. i guess id still would behave normally.. if not even be happier.. sad to say.. i nv liked ppl whu cheat themselves.. erm.. de movie yesterday? de emperor's club or sth.. hmm.. i din got angry wif the guy for cheating.. but i pitied him for cheating himself.. alrite.. once in a while.. u cheat in ur life.. but he is darn stupid.. cheating on himself.. Twice.. -_- and at the same thg..-_-"
i seriously hoped it wun be hate.. but i say i am irritated? its as if u dunno who i am.. n how i react..
okiez.. drama ppl today got serious prob.. they were like crying. damn.. wat can me de "buddha" do? haha.. wateva.. i'll jus encourage and help if i can lor.. ;) relac eugene.. i noe de probs.. stay strong.. i can see wat ur thinking.. wat stress u under :P haha.. happens to all bah.. Jia Jia You Ben Nan Nian De Jing.. haha..siva cant endure n quite her synapse.. Jai cant endure n cried today.. haha.. faggots.. i din fall :P mrs cheong shall admire me.. lol.. i stay strong.. n stronger.. anyway, guess im ready to organise a bbq session for all de cca leaders or.. erm de senators.. :P haha.. see how lor.. ok.. drama peeps.. dun worry.. theres always Me.. like zhen hui said for his Project eureka.. "secret character" lol..
i think i realli hate it when theres like "flies" buzzing ard.. oh erm.. i mean.. my family members.. yah.. irritating.. i noe they concern bout my work.. but.. wateva k? i can do it.. relax.. :P
jialat.. alot work nv do.. past 1hr 30 mins slacked.. n im kinda slpy.. :P nvm.. i can endure.. chiong ah~~~ :P do transition metal..? n den do de GP essay.. yar.. haha.. nxt time den do maths.. oh ya.. gotta burn photo cd for ms leow.. shall do it tmr morning.. den i mus go install game rite away.. hmm.. my way of connecting wif de OPEC :P
in school..
4/06/2005 12:33:00 PMhahaahh.. guess wat? im in sch rite now..haha.. in sch library.. com 7.. :P dun care.. onli wanna mention that.. they jus confirmed how i felt.. yea..i mean i wanted to act normal.. butthey disallowed me to act normal.. diaoz.. jus teling me n any1 else whu cares.. im NOT the problem!!!
cya n blog tonite.. :P
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
cut, pound squash my brain..
4/05/2005 08:44:00 PMdid i jus make me hate myself?
haha..
im chanting Amor Ipsemet..~
wat did i do..?
nth is wrong rite?
ah.. wat the hell~
i was sad.. n she still wan me sadder
4/05/2005 07:48:00 PMi think u turn rather mean lor.. u noe.. dun hurt me lidat.. last time u wun say such comments de lor.. why must u do this to me.. :( i tot u supported me all along.. have u really change? i hope its for de better *pray* i think i dunno wats happening again!
can i start wif today? hmm darn.. cos yesterdayi made de gei kiang decision to join aj idols.. hahah.. i guess i eventually joined.. cos becos ppl like sorta look down on me.. n i dun like tt!! haiz.. i rather they gua mu xiang kan.. anyway.. i cant sing well meh? i dun care! but really rather sad.. cos i screwed up de idols audition lar.. yesterday i asked le.. but i guess nobody bothered wif me.. so sad.. so i anyhow picked a song which i think quite nice lor.. Jay - Ge Qian.. den i dunno de lyrics mah... so dis morning den i start to find n print de lyrics lor.. damn lar.. i dun understand y i so stubborn mus sing dis song.. when i noe i sound good at all songs watz.. :P but its true lar im not strong in anythg.. haiz.. so during de audition i sorta forgot my lyrics lar.. so sad.. malu myself.. why.. mus i.. do .. this. to... my self>? bah! but anyway.. at least i signed up n join! its ok.. yah.. trying to hypnotize myself into thinking.. im not sad.. im not sad.. im not sad.. ah.. but i noe i still do feel abit sad.. hehe.. dissapointed more maybe.. sekali de judge like my voice.. den ..whahaha.. but.. anyway.. noe im kinda like deceiving myself.. heee its ok! not able to in finals so wat? its ok.. cos i define idol my ownself cant i? ha.. jus as long as i connect to ppl.. n they support me.. isnt it de same as popular n becoming Idol? heeee =)
oh.. sunday was spent sorting PS stuff lor.. cos got de J1s programmes to settle.. yep.. bah.. n den i skipped qing ming as well.. cos dun feel like going.. :P
sat was my burfday! wee..~ thks lots to char,nic n TJ.. at least de effort was there :) i appreciate! yepz.. my sis baked cake for me.. corn layered cake.. erm.. v swweet lor.. but i somehow got hungry and managed to finish it up :P ya.. guess its cos its chilled bah.. cold cold sweet sweet like dessert lor.. :P oh ya.. i treated myself ice cream cake on sat? haha.. >.< and nobody asked wats my wish.. anyway.. u can guess wat.. haha.. i oso used the wallet char gave.. cos i mus appreciate mah.. :P anyway.. i like it ;)
Saturday, April 02, 2005
go on.. go on..
4/02/2005 10:16:00 AMeh.. i was tired i supposed.. blog last nite till i slept lor.. bah.. anyway.. dis morning wake up.. so cold.. raining.. argh..brr.. cuddled in bed.. den wanted to thank those that wished my happy bday.. so i did n msg darling too.. yupz.. decided to go for the ab camp meeting.. anyway.. bday doesnt mean no work k.. haha.. din rly feel good.. but i guess better than last nite bah.. slp helps k..
hmm so back to de meeting wif my J1 programme committee.. yupz.. they seemed to hav abit of thgs to toked huh.. so i dunno.. thgs jus keep gg on n on lor.. den i tried to figure out wat we hav planned.. yep.. n then john n the gals seemed not to be really getting along well.. last nite kangli even told me that.. ok lar.. wateva.. i dun gif a damn lar.. u all wan argue go ahead lor.. i side on the logical one.. sometimes argument is good watz.. at least i got a choice n got opinions of differnt sorts.. yupz.. den i can see problems tts gg to arise more clearly.. yep.. haah.. so its rather tiring.. de meeting until like 8.30pm den end lor.. as late as de councils.. yupz.. den met yixuan lor.. he tell me not to join AJ idol n that i wun win.. -__- bah.. wat u wan me to say?
so i went to take bus home lor.. took 162 again cos it came first.. n den i almost over sat the bus again.. but ok.. i nv.. managed to rush down de bus.. n den i decided to walk to the next busstop cos i dun wanna wait for de 135 bus.. n de next busstop oso got both 133 n 135.. so i did walked lor.. de distance quite long.. n de whole stretch onli got me lor.. ok.. so i sang songs lor.. den saw 135 coming. so i had to run quite abit.. to catch the bus.. but hmm.. i did caught it ..de bus somehow slowed down.. guess its cos it couldnt turn out cos got cars coming in de next lane.. yupz.. haha.. so managed to took it.. but then found my leg muscles abit pain.. ah.. de usual place where it ached.. its like numb..
then reached home quite late le.. n i haven eat.. but i decide go bath first.. den my mum were like questioning me why so late.. then i dun wanna reply de.. but still forced to say dat i had meeting.. den she began scolding lor.. tok bout grades n stuff.. yah.. saddening.. its not as if i dunno wat im doing.. i noe de importance n stuff.. can they jus stop toking bout it.. damn lar.. as if all those toking helps..thks so much for de "concern" then..
i got no bday plans since a v long time ago.. din even bother.. cos it got not much significance to me.. sry k.. din asked de class to bother.. cos i dun care de.. if dey rly care den they wuld.. if they remembered then good.. if not.. den its ok.. makes no difference..
dis morning received msgs frm ppl tat i care.. quite nice.. yes.. like mindy..bekky..shilin..etc.. n lulu.. whom i noe she will remember what she promised.. hmm.. thanks man.. cos u noe i dun remind ppl of my bday.. i nv liked those bebo n watsoever birthday alarm shits.. if they bother dey wuld hav remembered it.. yah.. ok.. so i noe that they bothered.. thanks alot..
lulu.. i dun think i will go jump today.. guessed tt wish is meant for u to fulfill de lor..i will continue to wait till u bring me jump.. yea.. i nv doubt tt u will forget the promise.. jus wanted to let u noe.. its my wish..
i gotta go print my docs out for the ab camp meeting later.. so shall stopped blogging liao.. anyway.. im feeling better le.. be glad that i hav short term memory.. cos i cant remem what happened last nite le.. dun wann go think liao..
what is really going on??
4/02/2005 03:05:00 AMso after sch.. i accompanied char to put her bag in drama room then she accompany go library print stuff.. oh.. its for de meeting wif exco de lar.. yupz.. so we went lo.. so thks for pei then.. afterwards i saw lulu who went to watch the cheerleading thgy from panther house.. ya..so i showed n reminded her of her promise last yr during dec.. yep.. she looked kinda serious.. but i noe she jus did remembered her promise.. but i jus wonder wat she wuld do.. n then she jus said.. go ask char..-_- oh ok lor.. den din continue de conversation.. char looked as if she was rather troubled by wat i did.. ah.. ok.. i dunno wats wrong.. :( next is the meeting wif PS lor.. everythg was quite alrite i guess.. transmitted wat i wanted wif those ppl there.. n then later de few of us.. john.. yih ting.. kang li.. lifei n mei stayed to discuss bout J1 programmes.. yep..
sho we were quite enthu bout it i guessed.. n then we discussed lor.....
wat is really going on?~
4/02/2005 01:53:00 AMok.. im back.. skipped de most difficult time.. 12 am when it strikes twelve, symbolising the start of my bday.. oh well.. i slept exactly at tt hour.. >.<
wats happening next till lunch was really nth much..eventless.. i would say.. normal lessons.. dun think tt much.. copy stuff.. listen tcher tok.. but ok.. isnt tt supposed to be de way? hmm..
alrite.. i jus dun like lunching alone.. so i went back class.. n den went lunch wif char.. we din eat de same thg.. so we splitted.. after buying finish.. i decided to sit wif de guys instead.. so i realised she was actually sitting wif de gals liao.. so ok lor.. fine.. lets not bother it.. by the time i finish.. oh ok.. they split again.. wateva then..guess char was discussing my bday wif tj.. yah..ok thks again.. i wondered wat char had toked wif HL about.. or perhaps nothing at all..
for GP lesson.. ok.. perhaps its de more lighthearted event of the day.. cos its like de class played a april fool joke on ms daljit.. we jus went and hide next door quietly.. while leaving onli marie which is de GP rep there in de class.. all of us were hiding nxt door watching.. except like ST n siva which din noe de plan.. so they were jus acting normally.. except marie wif her blur acts.. yupz.. so ms daljit stormed in n asked where de hell we are.. n questioned whats wrong wif the college again.. yah.. haha.. ok.. funny then.. n then we jus tot we shuldnt carry it too far.. so we opened up de door n we shouted april fool lo.. ok.. turned out tht she actually like de joke.. ok.. guess shes in a nicer mood today.. hmm.. :)
Friday, April 01, 2005
whats gg on? 4~
4/01/2005 11:50:00 PMtsk ~ i still cant smile.. sorry.. now head got slight ache le.. wanted to slp.. but noe i shuldnt.. anyway its like 10 mins to my bday.. wat the hell.. i really would come blog later lar.. i go rest more.. my dad were like nagging for leaving de com on.. -_-.. back to hiding in bed.. :(
whats gg on? 3~
4/01/2005 11:25:00 PMvery very moody now.. dunno why.. a series of events must have made me dis way.. ah.. :( i even had problems like posting up my blog.. cos it says " there was an error".. bah.. dun feel gd.. hmm.. ah.. let me continue again later.. wanna go hide in my bed.. :( cant imagine i had appeared as if felt nth.. n then blogged for de previous entries.. yes.. it felt weird.. but ..wateva.. haiz.. pack up some feelings first.. felt rather dense up inside..
whats gg on? 2~
4/01/2005 11:17:00 PMthursday.. hmm tired.. i was tired.. realli tired.. thinking bout it makes me feel tired now too.. but i am tired now.. tired.. x.X err.. as usual darling not happy.. hmm.. cant wat happened again.. i cant remem.. argh.. i cant remem anything.. :( i jus noe im like there for her no matter wat.. ya.. haha..
GP bridge.. i was kinda so unfortunate to have to go down n present my essay content.. er.. wateva.. it was lucky tt i was sorta active n that period of time.. cos i sorta enjoyed de time wif kahkong and de guys.. ya.. even made the song.. "ppl killing kahkong dying.. kahkong hurt.. n we are crying.." eh.. haha.. cos the bridge got this song as part of its lesson lor.. hmm.. wateva.. so yah i was asked to go down present cos got some gal.. must hav think i so special or sth.. den sabo n asked me go down present.. bah.. so i did lor.. n then i tell them wats my answer briefly in a rather strict tone lor.. hmm.. cos i wrote in a v messy handwriting.. den de tchers oso dun wanna go thru.. den spared me n asked me go back.. while she marked other ppls papers.. yah..lol..
hmm.. once again.. i cant remem wat other thgs happened.. jus tired.. stressed i guess.. i wanan hide in my bed again.. hide.. freeze.. do nothing.. :(
whats gg on? 1~
4/01/2005 10:36:00 PMhmm.. nv blog for some time.. actually no.. nv blog onli for like wed, thurs n today lor.. ya.. hmm.. guess its cos i now feel so messy..
err.. lets tok bout wed.. hmm cca carnival 2.. wat happened in the morning.. i cant remem.. but i guess its a day darling not happy again.. aftnn was quite tiring.. cos i was made de human resource ic in a last minute notice.. n den i gotta go help to take charge in ensuring that the performances ran well.. yupz.. bah..
first problem was that how qi yuan was de programme ic.. hmm haha.. i noe i can expect nth much out of it.. but still quite ok lar.. at least i saw some planning.. which i think it is obviously due to Ng Puay San preaching.. hell ya.. so wat went wrong was tt the whole programme sorta screwed.. as in he dun even noe when de J1s gonna come out of the audi. wah biang..! so it turn out tht mr lim kopi is not giving any speech.. n dat some how current affairs gave a presentation instead in which i see no link either.. n ya.. some councils were there doing sth.. which i dunno wat either.. so it became like "waht the hell is happening".. ya.. so kinda shitty to have to work wif those programmes.. -_-
but still managed i guess.. as in i still did wat im supposed to do lor.. ok.. nth much of any error.. cos i managed to sorta solve de probs. n then i managed to like finish de programmes fast.. n so everythg was like pushed forward abit lor.. anyway.. there was like v few ppl in de hall.. n all de j1s like left le.. so nvm lor.. jus shift everythg forward n go home fast.. ya.. bah.. de j1s so darn good.. left audi straight away go home lar.. dun even stay for the cca carnival..
but hmm.. in de end still got like 90+ ppl join PS i think.. tho lower den de first intake.. but still quite alot lar.. ya.. so ok lor.. wasnt tht bad afterall.. my members said that they werent even giving out the pamphlets n stuff.. n those J1s jus come n sign lor.. den.. erm.. OK lor.. diaoz..
hmm.. scrap of pearls points.. was it good or bad? i dunno.. did they join cca for fun? or for commitment.. or for learning new skill,experience.. or earning a name for themselves.. or gaining some achievements.. or wateva reasons.. hmm.. what are they doing? i dunno.. cant think in their shoes.. wats wif them.. how come like got generation gap.. bah..
anyway.. saw that some of de 1st 3 mths J1s were like staying back in PS.. rather glad n happy bout tt lar.. haha.. :) and there was dis st nic gal.. cant remem her name ;P n she told me tt she will b gg to NJC.. n then i said that she cant make it.. n she will stay in AJ.. n then it turn out to be true lor.. haha.. i dunno to feel sorry or good.. haha.. but kinda glad to see her again.. ;P
Sun Jin.. de j1 that i helped appeal send me an sms to say that his appeal failed.. hmm kinda sad lar.. cos i noe his photog skills quite good n dat he is not a very bad person lar.. ya.. n de sms he sent me made me feel so wei da.. ya.. "the kindest person in AJ".. wah.. haha.. tt was nice.. hes now in CJC.. n den he described de president there as "not as good as me" n that he was arrogant.. whaha.. ok.. thks man.. take care wherever u are.. yah.. :)
Want you
4/01/2005 10:15:00 PM"How do you make someone want something?"
Have you ever thought about that concept?
Why is it that people WANT things in the first place, and how can you actually MAKE someone want something?
When you think about the things that YOU want, and then ask yourself WHY you want those things, you'll begin to realize why this is such a profound question.
Why is it that Coke has dominated the cola marketwhen we all know that Pepsi wins the taste tests?
Why is it that some nightclubs keep people outsidein line for hours when there's plenty of room insidethe club?
Well, I obviously can't go into an in-depth explanation of why these things are so, but I think it's obvious that:
1) Most of the things that people "want" aren't forthe most logical reasons.
2) We humans only "want what we don't have"... and once we get what we want, we quickly get bored.
3) Even knowing that something is readily available to us makes us lose interest.
So why such a long explanation?
April Fools' Day Origin
4/01/2005 10:05:00 PMThere are several explanations for the origin of April Fools' Day, but here is the most plausible one. April 1st was once New Year's Day in France. In 1582, Pope Gregory declared the adoption of his Gregorian calendar to replace the Julian calendar and New Year's Day was officially changed to January 1st. It took awhile for everyone in France to hear the news of this major change and others obstinately refused to accept the new calendar, so a lot of people continued to celebrate New Year's Day on the first of April – earning them the name April fools. The April fools were subjected to ridicule and practical jokes and the tradition was born. The butts of these pranks were first called poisson d'avril or April fish because a young naive fish is easily caught. A common practice was to hook a paper fish on the back of someone as a joke. This evolved over time and a custom of prank-playing continues on the first day of April.