Be a man do the right thing
what shuld i say..?
"i shuld have seen IT coming.. i shuld hav read de signs.."
"anyway.. i guess its over?"
haha.. NO..
im Not the FooL again
it was a dammit day..there was jus like a huge ball of string entangled in my mind. so i jus needed time to like untangle them.. n no.. i din wanna use a scissors cos it'll end up into my short strings which is like alot worse.. haha.. so.. quite moody today.. admit its my bad.. cant help feeling this way though.. i blamed no one.. y shuld i.. i thank god.. at least my thinking was gonna stay straight.. i'll b alrite.. guess so.. jus take it dat i've got period.. haha.. i do believe in guys having dat.. yea.. :P
thks to SL, tho she din helped.. but she replied my sms.. within 2 hrs.. haha
it was quite funny.. the way i hopped on to bus 162, as if it was 853. well.. mus be shuying whu set dis illusion.. cos she was like panickly got onto the bus as well.. she lives in serangoon too.. tho i dunno where.. N so.. i sat on the bus.. alone.. as usual.. n ok.. mind quite clear.. due to running perhaps.. i noticed shuying getting off the bus.. n to me it was weird.. she stopped at amk central.. yupz.. ok.. main pt not there.. we smiled at each other as the bus left.. then.. i was at a whole stretch of road where i was supposed to stop at to change bus.. but i din.. i dunno.. first bus stop was lazy.. 2nd was lazy.. 3rd was lazy.. n 4th was unnoticed.. 5th was like.. gosh.. i missed 2 bus stops! i jus sat in my bus n watched myself carried away to someother place.. the way towards bishan.. lol.. i had a good luff.. at myself.. how dumb..
so i walked back not jus 2 bus stops.. but to another bus stop where there was more bus options.. i liked walking alone.. in the wind.. felt relaxed.. n yea.. got the wind blowing at my face.. haha.. i jus saw my bus left when i reached the bus stop.. -_-
so i hopped on to any bus that comes next.. yupz.. dun gif a damn anymore.. so i did.. but de nxt bus stop i got off.. in1 min of waiting.. came my bus.. i jus had the guts to do it.. based on feeling that.. god will send me home.. quick.. cos a normal journey like 30 mins.. i took almost an hr.. haha..
okiez.. felt that was damn hilarious.. moral of the story? erm.. jus turn back.. continue searching for more oportunities.. trust urself.. trust that everythgs gonna b alrite ;)
lulu din wan to tell me wat she smsed me last nite.. i noe its got sth to do wif me n char.. n de content mus be explicit.. sth she tot she shouldnt say.. haha.. but lets hope she will do it again n say it.. i dun mind listening.. nope.. n i wun be sad bout it.. promise?
i still din noe whether HCL was back again.. but even others was like asking was char.. hmm.. i din abduct her.. even F was not seen.. only saw HL together.. oh milk.. healthy? haha.. nope.. toking bout chemistry.. bet u ppl din listen to lecture today.. i may seem to be doing GP.. but i was listening k? electrolysis of KCL.. haha.. greatz.. i liked that.. lol.. but chemically wrong that KC was able to be together? nah.. we could consult any chem expert to help us make that cpd.. :P
hmm.. u noe.. i guess IT is back.. mus be.. i should have known.. wat else but IT.. oh IT my best fren.. i noe ur there.. IT dun hide.. u mus have come for me huh? go on.. one day i'll beat u IT.. i noe ur always there.. rite frm the starting of the year.. u've never leave me.. i jus tot u did.. u made me feel dat u did.. dat after a new year.. u'll be gone.. but hey IT.. good job.. u got me down.. n unaware.. good job.. i challenge u IT.. haiz.. going against my luck huh.. go n luff bout it..
i mus say sth to U.. ha.. i shuld.. afterall u bothered to write an email.. :)
this is for U..
Darling,
The moment u smsed me in the evening wif my name spelt out. I knew,dat ur gonna use it again somehow. Haha.. I still prefer u calling me dear dear. So pls go on and do it. it wuld even be great if the ppl around us accept the way we are calling each other. rite? jus like how now the whole class calling me hao ren. Im pretty flattered by the name still. haha
I wasnt at all surprised that u will write me an email. Im telling u this, i wasnt. I knew u had a great deal of thgs that u wished to say to me. But u jus dunno how to start. Well neither do i. ha. The content of the email u sent me, hmm.. rly v much expected. Bout me, u n lulu. and how v much u will like to go back in time. yes, i expected it. so it came in no shock to me at all. even though i was like jus woke up for 5 mins when i read the mail. Ya. My bio clock gone crazy. slping at 8.30, and waking at 11.30. kaoz. But still, i hope u understand y i had gone to slp at 8.45 de nite before. u should have noticed. i dunno whether u did.
No doubt, lulu was a great friend. But she can be so ignorant about stuffs, she hurt me unknowingly. But it din matter. I dun blame her. At least she told me a Big secret the other time. which i shuld thank her. how her brain works, i dunno. Dun understand her reasons for doing this. but i guess, she must be doing things she feels from her heart. so, its alrite. though i dunno wat else she might do. but i guess, i might jus ignore wat she wants if i find her reason.. unreasonable.
U noe, i saw a quote. Jus dis afternoon. :) i knew i could use it, as my eyes unknowingly landed on the quote. Its at the library 2nd floor, enter through the door and turn left. there u see 2 quotes on the glass wall. i was referring to the higher 1. haha. find it if u want. ha. well. its gotta do with u having wanted to go back in time n saying "I would, should, could" have done this. u noe wat? It makes u a Loser. yupz i agree. i should be sort of like angry with you. cos i din wan u to be a loser. but i din. cos u make me see that. u lose with grace. u accepted how u lost. n for the sake of winning, u actually told me about it. yupz. N so. to be a winner? the difference lies in "i will, can, shall" do this. I think ur gonna be one. :)
i sincerely hoped. i was different from STARS though. yupz. still i prefer the red moon. i hope u do. and enjoyed the reason why it was red. ha. it was lame. but. who noes. y cant it be true?
glad u noe im gonna say the "you think too much". ha. go ask around. perhaps it might be the very same words i said to all those that sought my listening ear. but perhaps i think too much too. so i qualified as a drama ppl? ha. u noe i always wanted to. n yup. i'll pray for them.
guess what will i do next? well. taking it that nth had happen lor. might seem hard. but i guess both of us will try our best. ha. hope it dun turns out weird. i believe we can jus pick it up again. where we left at Feb 19. how i thanked u for being my wife. n what happens next. we dunno. ha. i guess. i still owe u a flower. perhaps it made a key lot of difference. but yea ur rite. im lazy. but jus to let u noe. i made a difference yesterday. i went to buy a cake remem? haha
I promised i'll be by your side remem? on 22nd of feb. i noe u did. but lets jus take it u dun. so now im telling u again. i'll be somewhere near u somehow. may not be physically. but mentally oso can wat. dun say ur head. ha. i'll be there. really. hoping u will always need me.
its not funny. i typed this after i smsed u. definitely. it takes time to type. im sure u did for the email u typed. :P
sincerely
your Dear Dear